there’s really a lot to say.. i don’t even know where to start..

let’s start with our blue and white screening.. the blue and white is the name of our school paper.. and I’m proud to be a part of it.. really proud.. just last Wednesday, we had our screening.. we’ll be graduating soon and we need new people to take our places.. what can i say about the people who applied? “God!” i can’t even describe how insulted i was.. we come from a school known as one of the schools whose students are really good in english.. wow! i just can’t really describe what i feel.. now, we’re thinking about giving them another chance.. to improve maybe.. there’s really a BIG room for improvement.. i swear.. you should have read what they wrote.. it was almost pure crap..

i guess that’s it.. all i can say is that i’m grossed out by the way they write.. not them,, just their writings..

I’d like to apologize for those who were insulted by this post.. i just can’t help my self..

I don’t really have much friends in our neighborhood. There are only two people here that I care about. Well, I did. And they’re the only ones here who cares about me. Well, I thought they did.

Every time they decide to meet, they never call me and ask me to come. But I decided to let that go. But now, it’s really bothering me. Because every time I’m with them, they talk about things that I don’t know. And when I ask them about it, they always say “secret!”. It makes me feel like a nobody. If they don’t want me to know, can’t they have at least a little bit of respect? They can at least not talk about it in front of me.

Whenever I think about it, all I could think of is how not important I am to anyone. It’s like even if I die, would anyone care? If I leave, would they cry? I don’t think so…

If I didn’t exist in this world, would it make much of a difference? Would anyone miss anything? I’m a nobody to them. I’m a nobody to anyone.

That scene made me realize a lot of things in life. Then I remembered something that I have read in a book. That God created all these mishaps in order for us to go to Him. To increase our faith towards Him and make us believe that He really exists. That He’s not just a make-believe. As long as we have a very strong faith, why would He ignore us? He loves us so much that He sacrificed His own son to save us.

And when I thought about it, I remembered how I complained for every little thing that happens to me which doesn’t makes me happy. Why should little problems in life bother me when there are a lot of people out there who are suffering much more than I am. Instead of just thinking about my self, I should also think about others. There are a lot of them who need my help. Our help.

So, think about it.. We don’t question God when we’re happy… Who are we to question him when obstacles come our way?

Believe in Him. Talk to Him. Because He listens and He understands more than anyone else here on earth.

Heart of Tears

By: Marion Villareal

It was really tough

What we went through in the past

But I never thought

That wouldn’t last

One day you came up to me

And revealed what you feel

My days became brighter

Knowing those things you said were real

But then I realized

That being with you wouldn’t be right

I know I would regret this one day

Because I didn’t say yes, though I could’ve just might

I was a little surprised

When I knew you were with another girl

The world suddenly stopped turning

Instead, it seemed like it started to twirl

I never expected

That you’d end up with her

It was too impossible

And some times I tend to wonder…

Seeing you with her really hurts

And I don’t know why

It may seem a little weird

But I could hear my heart cry…